Do you wake up every day thanking God for what He has given to you? Or do you wake up feeling sorry for yourself and not appreciating what God has given to you?
A lot of times I woke up feeling sorry for myself and not thanking God and appreciating what I already have. I felt like I've been praying to God constantly but yet he still hasn't answered any of my prayers. Little did I know, God has his own timing on everything that He does.
I have been on a 40 day corporate fasting with my church and one thing I have been fasting and praying for is financial break trough. I have always prayed for it, even before the fasting, but during this fasting I continued to ask God for the doors to be opened. I had faith and believed that God will open the way.
As it says in Matthew 7:7-8 :
Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
It was just a couple months ago that my dad started a new job and he said it has been kind of rough on him. The only way I could think to help is through prayer, so I prayed for him everyday that he will stay strong and that God will open up the doors for him. A couple of weeks ago I asked my dad again about his work. I asked him how he was doing and to my surprise he said that he loves it and he just recently got a raise and a bonus at the same time! Now, if God didn't do that then who did? Who am I kidding? Of course it was God! As I mentioned earlier, God has his own timing for everything, including answering prayers. And the best part is that his timing is NEVER late!
The next time you wake up in the morning, you should thank God for everything that you have and for everything that He has done. If you still feel like there's something that you need, then just do as it says in Matthew 7:7-8 - ASK and it will be given to you. It's as simple as that, asking :) be blessed!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Fighting Forgiveness
Today I came across this daily devotional, which I think best describes how to forgive someone in the simplest way :
But when you are praying, first forgive anyone you are holding a grudge against, so that your Father in heaven will forgive your sins, too. Mark 11:25 (NLT)
It might be one of the hardest things to not only say, but mean. It is a phrase that destroys your pride and rips into your ego. Yet, something this dramatic and profound can be exchanged in two simple words. "I’m sorry."
The flip side is not much easier. To forgive can be just as daunting and trying. When someone has hurt you or wronged you, it is hard to accept that two simple words can fix it. However, is it all that much easier to bottle up your feelings and hold everything inside?
Let’s face it. When we have pain or cause pain, it is more than just words that get in the way. It is our feelings and emotions. The more time that goes by, the more entrenched the memory becomes, until it consumes everything in you to the point that you are to terrified to ask, or too scared to give in.
Take a moment, right now, to think of the people you need to forgive. Then take a few minutes to think of who you need to seek forgiveness from. No matter how hard it may be, or how long ago it might have happened, it is never too late to do something about it. A simple "I forgive you" or an "I’m sorry" could go a long ways to fix something that was once unfixable. While it may not solve everything, it sure is a good start.
Now, after reading that, I'd like to share my personal experience of trying to forgive my dad. Some of you might not know about my life, but about 5 years ago is when I felt my whole world was falling apart. My parents had been fighting a lot and finally my mom moved out of the house and filed for divorce. To blame the whole entire thing on my dad would probably not be right, but for some reason I always had in mind that it was his fault. I finally moved down here to Seattle a couple months after that all happened and I held a very deep grudge against my dad. I always felt mad at him and blamed him for the things that happened with my family. After a few months in Seattle, I started going to church every week and I guess you can say that I started finding God again (I have been a Christian all my life, but when my parents started fighting all the time, the whole family stopped going to church and we were all far from God at that point). Moving down to Seattle was probably one of my ways to run away from all my family problems. I thought that it would be easier for me to run, even though I didn't know where I was really going. But after a while, running gets tiring. You only have so much energy to keep running on your own. This is when I realized that there's something holding me back. Every time I was in church and was getting prayed for, everyone would tell me that I need to forgive my dad in order to let God in my life. You have no idea how much I wanted to forgive him, but you also have no idea how hard it was for those words to come out of my mouth and actually mean it. All I could think of at the time was the pain that he caused me and my family and at that time I just started breaking out in tears telling God that I was tired of feeling this way. That was the day, that everything was released. I forgave my dad and I couldn't feel any happier, a big weight on my shoulder was just lifted and I felt that I could live my life the way that I wanted. I had a BIG God that was bigger than all of this. So remember, forgiving is one way to open up the doors to better things. As it said in the devotional, it might not solve everything, but it is a good start. Have a blessed day! :)
But when you are praying, first forgive anyone you are holding a grudge against, so that your Father in heaven will forgive your sins, too. Mark 11:25 (NLT)
It might be one of the hardest things to not only say, but mean. It is a phrase that destroys your pride and rips into your ego. Yet, something this dramatic and profound can be exchanged in two simple words. "I’m sorry."
The flip side is not much easier. To forgive can be just as daunting and trying. When someone has hurt you or wronged you, it is hard to accept that two simple words can fix it. However, is it all that much easier to bottle up your feelings and hold everything inside?
Let’s face it. When we have pain or cause pain, it is more than just words that get in the way. It is our feelings and emotions. The more time that goes by, the more entrenched the memory becomes, until it consumes everything in you to the point that you are to terrified to ask, or too scared to give in.
Take a moment, right now, to think of the people you need to forgive. Then take a few minutes to think of who you need to seek forgiveness from. No matter how hard it may be, or how long ago it might have happened, it is never too late to do something about it. A simple "I forgive you" or an "I’m sorry" could go a long ways to fix something that was once unfixable. While it may not solve everything, it sure is a good start.
Now, after reading that, I'd like to share my personal experience of trying to forgive my dad. Some of you might not know about my life, but about 5 years ago is when I felt my whole world was falling apart. My parents had been fighting a lot and finally my mom moved out of the house and filed for divorce. To blame the whole entire thing on my dad would probably not be right, but for some reason I always had in mind that it was his fault. I finally moved down here to Seattle a couple months after that all happened and I held a very deep grudge against my dad. I always felt mad at him and blamed him for the things that happened with my family. After a few months in Seattle, I started going to church every week and I guess you can say that I started finding God again (I have been a Christian all my life, but when my parents started fighting all the time, the whole family stopped going to church and we were all far from God at that point). Moving down to Seattle was probably one of my ways to run away from all my family problems. I thought that it would be easier for me to run, even though I didn't know where I was really going. But after a while, running gets tiring. You only have so much energy to keep running on your own. This is when I realized that there's something holding me back. Every time I was in church and was getting prayed for, everyone would tell me that I need to forgive my dad in order to let God in my life. You have no idea how much I wanted to forgive him, but you also have no idea how hard it was for those words to come out of my mouth and actually mean it. All I could think of at the time was the pain that he caused me and my family and at that time I just started breaking out in tears telling God that I was tired of feeling this way. That was the day, that everything was released. I forgave my dad and I couldn't feel any happier, a big weight on my shoulder was just lifted and I felt that I could live my life the way that I wanted. I had a BIG God that was bigger than all of this. So remember, forgiving is one way to open up the doors to better things. As it said in the devotional, it might not solve everything, but it is a good start. Have a blessed day! :)
Monday, October 25, 2010
He won't let go :)
disappointment.
Why do we feel disappointed?
Why do we feel disappointed?
I have always wondered why I have had the patience to put up with negative feelings. But I can say that I'm glad God gave me a strong heart and mind to push through all the pain that I've felt throughout my life. Right now disappointment is the best word to describe how I feel. Why? Well because the people that I'm closest to or thought was closest to haven't been the best people to help me during the hard times. I never imagined that the closest people to me are actually the furthest from me right now. Yet life still goes on, whether you're going through good or bad. I really wish my life could be maybe say predictable. Just because I don't know what God has in store for me. Right now I am just living my life day by day, not knowing what's going to happen next. I can honestly say that I'm scared. BUT, I know that God is always on my side. I came across a song titled I won't let go by Rascal Flatts. Even though maybe the "I" in "I won't let go" doesn't necessarily mean God, I thought of it that way. And after I heard it, it made me feel safe. I hope somehow it will make you feel that way too :)
I Won't let go by Rascall Flatts
It's like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that
You think your lost
But your not lost
on your own
Your not alone
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
If you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go
It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it's dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we're too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let you fall
Don't be afraid to fall
I'm right here to catch you
I wont let you down
It wont get you down
Your gonna make it
Yea I know you can make it
Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go
Oh I'm gonna hold you
And I wont let go
Wont let you go
No I wont.
I Won't let go by Rascall Flatts
It's like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that
You think your lost
But your not lost
on your own
Your not alone
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
If you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go
It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it's dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we're too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let you fall
Don't be afraid to fall
I'm right here to catch you
I wont let you down
It wont get you down
Your gonna make it
Yea I know you can make it
Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go
Oh I'm gonna hold you
And I wont let go
Wont let you go
No I wont.
inspiration.
It's been a super long time since I blogged. Feels weird trying to get back to it. But I'm taking the time out of my busy life to write this :P
So, I just got back from retreat and got prophesied by Pastor Amos. The weirdest thing is that he said I can act and also something about me taking journalism. He said I am a good writer and that people will buy books that I have written. When I heard that I was like whoaaaaa, slow down here. It kind of didn't make any sense to me at first but after I thought about it, it got me thinking about how I do like writing and how I like inspiring other people through it. Even though I'm pretty sure no one actually reads my blogs. Hopefully, just hopefully when someone does, they will be inspired through it :)
So, I just got back from retreat and got prophesied by Pastor Amos. The weirdest thing is that he said I can act and also something about me taking journalism. He said I am a good writer and that people will buy books that I have written. When I heard that I was like whoaaaaa, slow down here. It kind of didn't make any sense to me at first but after I thought about it, it got me thinking about how I do like writing and how I like inspiring other people through it. Even though I'm pretty sure no one actually reads my blogs. Hopefully, just hopefully when someone does, they will be inspired through it :)
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
one of those days.
I never imagined my world falling apart in just a blink of an eye. Well maybe not completely apart but it's pretty close. I always imagined myself having an easy life with everything taken care of and all I have to worry about is graduating from school, but I guess life comes unexpected. Just when you think things are working out right, the next problem shows up and your life comes tumbling down. You try to cheer yourself up by saying that you are strong and will be able to push through, but the reality is that sometimes we just need to stop thinking about everything and let it all go, take a deep breath, maybe even cry or scream. After all that, it made me realize that the most important thing to do at a time like this is to PRAY and seek GOD. I found a quote saying, "Bad days are just the days when God reminds you to seek Him for you might have been too far from Him. Pray!" That quote itself spoke to me about how any problem that I face is never too big for GOD and that when I trust in Him and pray to Him asking for help, the doors will be opened. So just remember that when you're having one of those days, seek God.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
trust and love
"I believe that trust is the best proof of love"
Today I heard a story which inspired me to write about trust and love. It got me thinking about how trust plays such a big role in your life but most of all, your love life. I bet questions like "Do I trust him?" "Can I trust him?" "Does he trust me?" always pops in your head now and then. Even though some of you may say, of course I trust him! I think sometimes you just say it but don't mean it, cause deep in your heart you want to be right where he is and constantly want to know what he is doing and with who. This is the part where guys are like Woww! Girls these days! haha. But have you ever wondered if guys actually feel the same way? I've always had that curiousity. I want to know what's going on in their head when we go out with our guy friends or when we don't return his calls or reply his texts. Sometimes, I think guys are just the same as girls but they just can't or wont admit it. Guys are just as confusing to us, as we are to them. So basically aren't we the same in a way? haha. Okayy maybe I'm getting a bit side tracked here. What I'm trying to say is that sometimes it's hard to trust people but it never hurts to try. Because in the end you will know who are the people that you can and cannot trust. For anything that happens during the period of time you get to know that person or date that person, whether it's being able to trust them or not, take it as a part of life. If you can trust them then great, if not then let it be a lesson learned! :) Plus, the more you trust the stronger your love will be! :)
Today I heard a story which inspired me to write about trust and love. It got me thinking about how trust plays such a big role in your life but most of all, your love life. I bet questions like "Do I trust him?" "Can I trust him?" "Does he trust me?" always pops in your head now and then. Even though some of you may say, of course I trust him! I think sometimes you just say it but don't mean it, cause deep in your heart you want to be right where he is and constantly want to know what he is doing and with who. This is the part where guys are like Woww! Girls these days! haha. But have you ever wondered if guys actually feel the same way? I've always had that curiousity. I want to know what's going on in their head when we go out with our guy friends or when we don't return his calls or reply his texts. Sometimes, I think guys are just the same as girls but they just can't or wont admit it. Guys are just as confusing to us, as we are to them. So basically aren't we the same in a way? haha. Okayy maybe I'm getting a bit side tracked here. What I'm trying to say is that sometimes it's hard to trust people but it never hurts to try. Because in the end you will know who are the people that you can and cannot trust. For anything that happens during the period of time you get to know that person or date that person, whether it's being able to trust them or not, take it as a part of life. If you can trust them then great, if not then let it be a lesson learned! :) Plus, the more you trust the stronger your love will be! :)
Saturday, April 3, 2010
stay strong :)
Have u ever had that feeling where you're really mad at someone but you don't even know the exact reason why? Well that's what I'm feeling right now. I guess when you expect too much out of someone and don't get the results you want, disappointment comes along. Honestly not a feeling that I need right now. I wonder if crying my heart out would help this feeling go away? Cause lately crying has come easy to me. I get easily offended and I'm so sensitive these days. Maybe I'm just PMS-ing! And no it doesn't mean Pre-Menstrual Syndrome but more like Pissed at Men Syndrome. haha. Lame I know! :P Well I guess one way to let all your feelings out is through writing, so here I am splurting my heart out after not blogging since like forEVER! I guess no matter what happens to you, you take everything as life experience and just think that whatever happens, good or bad, it only makes you stronger! :)
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