Do you wake up every day thanking God for what He has given to you? Or do you wake up feeling sorry for yourself and not appreciating what God has given to you?
A lot of times I woke up feeling sorry for myself and not thanking God and appreciating what I already have. I felt like I've been praying to God constantly but yet he still hasn't answered any of my prayers. Little did I know, God has his own timing on everything that He does.
I have been on a 40 day corporate fasting with my church and one thing I have been fasting and praying for is financial break trough. I have always prayed for it, even before the fasting, but during this fasting I continued to ask God for the doors to be opened. I had faith and believed that God will open the way.
As it says in Matthew 7:7-8 :
Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
It was just a couple months ago that my dad started a new job and he said it has been kind of rough on him. The only way I could think to help is through prayer, so I prayed for him everyday that he will stay strong and that God will open up the doors for him. A couple of weeks ago I asked my dad again about his work. I asked him how he was doing and to my surprise he said that he loves it and he just recently got a raise and a bonus at the same time! Now, if God didn't do that then who did? Who am I kidding? Of course it was God! As I mentioned earlier, God has his own timing for everything, including answering prayers. And the best part is that his timing is NEVER late!
The next time you wake up in the morning, you should thank God for everything that you have and for everything that He has done. If you still feel like there's something that you need, then just do as it says in Matthew 7:7-8 - ASK and it will be given to you. It's as simple as that, asking :) be blessed!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Fighting Forgiveness
Today I came across this daily devotional, which I think best describes how to forgive someone in the simplest way :
But when you are praying, first forgive anyone you are holding a grudge against, so that your Father in heaven will forgive your sins, too. Mark 11:25 (NLT)
It might be one of the hardest things to not only say, but mean. It is a phrase that destroys your pride and rips into your ego. Yet, something this dramatic and profound can be exchanged in two simple words. "I’m sorry."
The flip side is not much easier. To forgive can be just as daunting and trying. When someone has hurt you or wronged you, it is hard to accept that two simple words can fix it. However, is it all that much easier to bottle up your feelings and hold everything inside?
Let’s face it. When we have pain or cause pain, it is more than just words that get in the way. It is our feelings and emotions. The more time that goes by, the more entrenched the memory becomes, until it consumes everything in you to the point that you are to terrified to ask, or too scared to give in.
Take a moment, right now, to think of the people you need to forgive. Then take a few minutes to think of who you need to seek forgiveness from. No matter how hard it may be, or how long ago it might have happened, it is never too late to do something about it. A simple "I forgive you" or an "I’m sorry" could go a long ways to fix something that was once unfixable. While it may not solve everything, it sure is a good start.
Now, after reading that, I'd like to share my personal experience of trying to forgive my dad. Some of you might not know about my life, but about 5 years ago is when I felt my whole world was falling apart. My parents had been fighting a lot and finally my mom moved out of the house and filed for divorce. To blame the whole entire thing on my dad would probably not be right, but for some reason I always had in mind that it was his fault. I finally moved down here to Seattle a couple months after that all happened and I held a very deep grudge against my dad. I always felt mad at him and blamed him for the things that happened with my family. After a few months in Seattle, I started going to church every week and I guess you can say that I started finding God again (I have been a Christian all my life, but when my parents started fighting all the time, the whole family stopped going to church and we were all far from God at that point). Moving down to Seattle was probably one of my ways to run away from all my family problems. I thought that it would be easier for me to run, even though I didn't know where I was really going. But after a while, running gets tiring. You only have so much energy to keep running on your own. This is when I realized that there's something holding me back. Every time I was in church and was getting prayed for, everyone would tell me that I need to forgive my dad in order to let God in my life. You have no idea how much I wanted to forgive him, but you also have no idea how hard it was for those words to come out of my mouth and actually mean it. All I could think of at the time was the pain that he caused me and my family and at that time I just started breaking out in tears telling God that I was tired of feeling this way. That was the day, that everything was released. I forgave my dad and I couldn't feel any happier, a big weight on my shoulder was just lifted and I felt that I could live my life the way that I wanted. I had a BIG God that was bigger than all of this. So remember, forgiving is one way to open up the doors to better things. As it said in the devotional, it might not solve everything, but it is a good start. Have a blessed day! :)
But when you are praying, first forgive anyone you are holding a grudge against, so that your Father in heaven will forgive your sins, too. Mark 11:25 (NLT)
It might be one of the hardest things to not only say, but mean. It is a phrase that destroys your pride and rips into your ego. Yet, something this dramatic and profound can be exchanged in two simple words. "I’m sorry."
The flip side is not much easier. To forgive can be just as daunting and trying. When someone has hurt you or wronged you, it is hard to accept that two simple words can fix it. However, is it all that much easier to bottle up your feelings and hold everything inside?
Let’s face it. When we have pain or cause pain, it is more than just words that get in the way. It is our feelings and emotions. The more time that goes by, the more entrenched the memory becomes, until it consumes everything in you to the point that you are to terrified to ask, or too scared to give in.
Take a moment, right now, to think of the people you need to forgive. Then take a few minutes to think of who you need to seek forgiveness from. No matter how hard it may be, or how long ago it might have happened, it is never too late to do something about it. A simple "I forgive you" or an "I’m sorry" could go a long ways to fix something that was once unfixable. While it may not solve everything, it sure is a good start.
Now, after reading that, I'd like to share my personal experience of trying to forgive my dad. Some of you might not know about my life, but about 5 years ago is when I felt my whole world was falling apart. My parents had been fighting a lot and finally my mom moved out of the house and filed for divorce. To blame the whole entire thing on my dad would probably not be right, but for some reason I always had in mind that it was his fault. I finally moved down here to Seattle a couple months after that all happened and I held a very deep grudge against my dad. I always felt mad at him and blamed him for the things that happened with my family. After a few months in Seattle, I started going to church every week and I guess you can say that I started finding God again (I have been a Christian all my life, but when my parents started fighting all the time, the whole family stopped going to church and we were all far from God at that point). Moving down to Seattle was probably one of my ways to run away from all my family problems. I thought that it would be easier for me to run, even though I didn't know where I was really going. But after a while, running gets tiring. You only have so much energy to keep running on your own. This is when I realized that there's something holding me back. Every time I was in church and was getting prayed for, everyone would tell me that I need to forgive my dad in order to let God in my life. You have no idea how much I wanted to forgive him, but you also have no idea how hard it was for those words to come out of my mouth and actually mean it. All I could think of at the time was the pain that he caused me and my family and at that time I just started breaking out in tears telling God that I was tired of feeling this way. That was the day, that everything was released. I forgave my dad and I couldn't feel any happier, a big weight on my shoulder was just lifted and I felt that I could live my life the way that I wanted. I had a BIG God that was bigger than all of this. So remember, forgiving is one way to open up the doors to better things. As it said in the devotional, it might not solve everything, but it is a good start. Have a blessed day! :)
Monday, October 25, 2010
He won't let go :)
disappointment.
Why do we feel disappointed?
Why do we feel disappointed?
I have always wondered why I have had the patience to put up with negative feelings. But I can say that I'm glad God gave me a strong heart and mind to push through all the pain that I've felt throughout my life. Right now disappointment is the best word to describe how I feel. Why? Well because the people that I'm closest to or thought was closest to haven't been the best people to help me during the hard times. I never imagined that the closest people to me are actually the furthest from me right now. Yet life still goes on, whether you're going through good or bad. I really wish my life could be maybe say predictable. Just because I don't know what God has in store for me. Right now I am just living my life day by day, not knowing what's going to happen next. I can honestly say that I'm scared. BUT, I know that God is always on my side. I came across a song titled I won't let go by Rascal Flatts. Even though maybe the "I" in "I won't let go" doesn't necessarily mean God, I thought of it that way. And after I heard it, it made me feel safe. I hope somehow it will make you feel that way too :)
I Won't let go by Rascall Flatts
It's like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that
You think your lost
But your not lost
on your own
Your not alone
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
If you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go
It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it's dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we're too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let you fall
Don't be afraid to fall
I'm right here to catch you
I wont let you down
It wont get you down
Your gonna make it
Yea I know you can make it
Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go
Oh I'm gonna hold you
And I wont let go
Wont let you go
No I wont.
I Won't let go by Rascall Flatts
It's like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that
You think your lost
But your not lost
on your own
Your not alone
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
If you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go
It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it's dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we're too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let you fall
Don't be afraid to fall
I'm right here to catch you
I wont let you down
It wont get you down
Your gonna make it
Yea I know you can make it
Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go
Oh I'm gonna hold you
And I wont let go
Wont let you go
No I wont.
inspiration.
It's been a super long time since I blogged. Feels weird trying to get back to it. But I'm taking the time out of my busy life to write this :P
So, I just got back from retreat and got prophesied by Pastor Amos. The weirdest thing is that he said I can act and also something about me taking journalism. He said I am a good writer and that people will buy books that I have written. When I heard that I was like whoaaaaa, slow down here. It kind of didn't make any sense to me at first but after I thought about it, it got me thinking about how I do like writing and how I like inspiring other people through it. Even though I'm pretty sure no one actually reads my blogs. Hopefully, just hopefully when someone does, they will be inspired through it :)
So, I just got back from retreat and got prophesied by Pastor Amos. The weirdest thing is that he said I can act and also something about me taking journalism. He said I am a good writer and that people will buy books that I have written. When I heard that I was like whoaaaaa, slow down here. It kind of didn't make any sense to me at first but after I thought about it, it got me thinking about how I do like writing and how I like inspiring other people through it. Even though I'm pretty sure no one actually reads my blogs. Hopefully, just hopefully when someone does, they will be inspired through it :)
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
one of those days.
I never imagined my world falling apart in just a blink of an eye. Well maybe not completely apart but it's pretty close. I always imagined myself having an easy life with everything taken care of and all I have to worry about is graduating from school, but I guess life comes unexpected. Just when you think things are working out right, the next problem shows up and your life comes tumbling down. You try to cheer yourself up by saying that you are strong and will be able to push through, but the reality is that sometimes we just need to stop thinking about everything and let it all go, take a deep breath, maybe even cry or scream. After all that, it made me realize that the most important thing to do at a time like this is to PRAY and seek GOD. I found a quote saying, "Bad days are just the days when God reminds you to seek Him for you might have been too far from Him. Pray!" That quote itself spoke to me about how any problem that I face is never too big for GOD and that when I trust in Him and pray to Him asking for help, the doors will be opened. So just remember that when you're having one of those days, seek God.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
trust and love
"I believe that trust is the best proof of love"
Today I heard a story which inspired me to write about trust and love. It got me thinking about how trust plays such a big role in your life but most of all, your love life. I bet questions like "Do I trust him?" "Can I trust him?" "Does he trust me?" always pops in your head now and then. Even though some of you may say, of course I trust him! I think sometimes you just say it but don't mean it, cause deep in your heart you want to be right where he is and constantly want to know what he is doing and with who. This is the part where guys are like Woww! Girls these days! haha. But have you ever wondered if guys actually feel the same way? I've always had that curiousity. I want to know what's going on in their head when we go out with our guy friends or when we don't return his calls or reply his texts. Sometimes, I think guys are just the same as girls but they just can't or wont admit it. Guys are just as confusing to us, as we are to them. So basically aren't we the same in a way? haha. Okayy maybe I'm getting a bit side tracked here. What I'm trying to say is that sometimes it's hard to trust people but it never hurts to try. Because in the end you will know who are the people that you can and cannot trust. For anything that happens during the period of time you get to know that person or date that person, whether it's being able to trust them or not, take it as a part of life. If you can trust them then great, if not then let it be a lesson learned! :) Plus, the more you trust the stronger your love will be! :)
Today I heard a story which inspired me to write about trust and love. It got me thinking about how trust plays such a big role in your life but most of all, your love life. I bet questions like "Do I trust him?" "Can I trust him?" "Does he trust me?" always pops in your head now and then. Even though some of you may say, of course I trust him! I think sometimes you just say it but don't mean it, cause deep in your heart you want to be right where he is and constantly want to know what he is doing and with who. This is the part where guys are like Woww! Girls these days! haha. But have you ever wondered if guys actually feel the same way? I've always had that curiousity. I want to know what's going on in their head when we go out with our guy friends or when we don't return his calls or reply his texts. Sometimes, I think guys are just the same as girls but they just can't or wont admit it. Guys are just as confusing to us, as we are to them. So basically aren't we the same in a way? haha. Okayy maybe I'm getting a bit side tracked here. What I'm trying to say is that sometimes it's hard to trust people but it never hurts to try. Because in the end you will know who are the people that you can and cannot trust. For anything that happens during the period of time you get to know that person or date that person, whether it's being able to trust them or not, take it as a part of life. If you can trust them then great, if not then let it be a lesson learned! :) Plus, the more you trust the stronger your love will be! :)
Saturday, April 3, 2010
stay strong :)
Have u ever had that feeling where you're really mad at someone but you don't even know the exact reason why? Well that's what I'm feeling right now. I guess when you expect too much out of someone and don't get the results you want, disappointment comes along. Honestly not a feeling that I need right now. I wonder if crying my heart out would help this feeling go away? Cause lately crying has come easy to me. I get easily offended and I'm so sensitive these days. Maybe I'm just PMS-ing! And no it doesn't mean Pre-Menstrual Syndrome but more like Pissed at Men Syndrome. haha. Lame I know! :P Well I guess one way to let all your feelings out is through writing, so here I am splurting my heart out after not blogging since like forEVER! I guess no matter what happens to you, you take everything as life experience and just think that whatever happens, good or bad, it only makes you stronger! :)
Monday, October 26, 2009
retreat'09 - live your life !
So I just got back from retreat with pastor amos and all I can say is that it was awesome! :) GOD is so good to all of us. The 1st night we got there we had a power outage because of all the wind that knocked some trees down so all the electricity was off and you can imagine how that was but that didn't stop us from praising and worshiping the Lord :) Pastor Amos said that God is showing us how it is when there is no electricity but we should still be able to do things as long as we walk in the light. We didn't have our 1st session but pastor Amos did share about his experiences. Around 11 we went to our cabins to sleep and finally the electricity went on around 2am.
The next morning we all got a wake up call at 6am and yes my room are all heavy sleepers so none of us wanted to wake up. haha. but we finally got out of bed went to prayer then breakfast and then our session began. We learned about how God speaks to us through our dreams, visions, prophecy, thoughts or our feelings. We also learned how about we can miss our destiny if we do not wait for God's timing. I guess it's always about the right timing, the right time to get a boyfriend/girlfriend, the right time for getting a job, etc. God always has his own timing for everything. Afterall he already has everything planned for us anyway :) So then it was free time till 6pm, we had group activities, rock climbing, high ropes, basketball, tennis or you could sleep if you wanted too. haha. But I did the high ropes course and let's just say I was freaking out like crazy but I had good friends to back me up and kept pushing me to go forward. After all those activities it was dinner time and then another session. We had an awesome praise and worship in the beginning then came along the session which was about the 2 principles: the principle of making a stand and the principle of divine dependance. It taught us how we have to stand up for Jesus and make the best out of it because a lot of other people need to be saved and if just one person stands up for Jesus a lot of people's lives can change. An example is like this video. Copy and Paste the link and hopefully you can watch it :)
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=622595000&ref=profile#/video/video.php?v=87705636216&ref=mf
So the night passed by and it was time for a bonfiree! wohoooo! :D it was our last night there but it was a fun night. We played the telephone game, charades and we ate smores. Eventhough it was super cold but we didn't care. We just had a lot of fun with all our friends. It started getting late and we had a long day and we had to wake up early again the next morning so we all went back to our cabins and got ready for bed.
Morning came, another wake up call but none of us woke up. We slept till like 7 and we were all late for the morning prayer. ooppsss ;P but we got ready as soon as we could and left to the sanctuary. We had breakfastt then our last session came :( We learned about walking in the spirit. How if we walk in the spirit then nothing can stop you. We have an awesome God and all we have to do is believe in Him. Nothing is impossible for God ;) After that last session I got prophecied by pastor Amos. He said that i had a lot of dissapointment in my life and rejection and how I felt guilty all the time. Tears started coming down my face as he said that. He said that I need to forget about the past. He also said that I am going to be an intercessor. woww didn't see that one coming. haha. He also said that people who have had the same experience as i had such as rejection and all that, will come to me for advice and I will be there to help them :)
Overall, retreat was AWESOME! I learned a lot, made new friends and had fun at the same time! I wish we could have been there longer but I guess it had to end some time + we all have school the next day. haha. but because of retreat now I have a new view of life, I'm gonna be more faithful and more on fire for God! :)
The next morning we all got a wake up call at 6am and yes my room are all heavy sleepers so none of us wanted to wake up. haha. but we finally got out of bed went to prayer then breakfast and then our session began. We learned about how God speaks to us through our dreams, visions, prophecy, thoughts or our feelings. We also learned how about we can miss our destiny if we do not wait for God's timing. I guess it's always about the right timing, the right time to get a boyfriend/girlfriend, the right time for getting a job, etc. God always has his own timing for everything. Afterall he already has everything planned for us anyway :) So then it was free time till 6pm, we had group activities, rock climbing, high ropes, basketball, tennis or you could sleep if you wanted too. haha. But I did the high ropes course and let's just say I was freaking out like crazy but I had good friends to back me up and kept pushing me to go forward. After all those activities it was dinner time and then another session. We had an awesome praise and worship in the beginning then came along the session which was about the 2 principles: the principle of making a stand and the principle of divine dependance. It taught us how we have to stand up for Jesus and make the best out of it because a lot of other people need to be saved and if just one person stands up for Jesus a lot of people's lives can change. An example is like this video. Copy and Paste the link and hopefully you can watch it :)
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=622595000&ref=profile#/video/video.php?v=87705636216&ref=mf
So the night passed by and it was time for a bonfiree! wohoooo! :D it was our last night there but it was a fun night. We played the telephone game, charades and we ate smores. Eventhough it was super cold but we didn't care. We just had a lot of fun with all our friends. It started getting late and we had a long day and we had to wake up early again the next morning so we all went back to our cabins and got ready for bed.
Morning came, another wake up call but none of us woke up. We slept till like 7 and we were all late for the morning prayer. ooppsss ;P but we got ready as soon as we could and left to the sanctuary. We had breakfastt then our last session came :( We learned about walking in the spirit. How if we walk in the spirit then nothing can stop you. We have an awesome God and all we have to do is believe in Him. Nothing is impossible for God ;) After that last session I got prophecied by pastor Amos. He said that i had a lot of dissapointment in my life and rejection and how I felt guilty all the time. Tears started coming down my face as he said that. He said that I need to forget about the past. He also said that I am going to be an intercessor. woww didn't see that one coming. haha. He also said that people who have had the same experience as i had such as rejection and all that, will come to me for advice and I will be there to help them :)
Overall, retreat was AWESOME! I learned a lot, made new friends and had fun at the same time! I wish we could have been there longer but I guess it had to end some time + we all have school the next day. haha. but because of retreat now I have a new view of life, I'm gonna be more faithful and more on fire for God! :)
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
avalanche - marie digby
So I found a song which pretty much explains how I feel right now :(
Avalanche
Avalanche
Since when do you come around?
And the temperature's changed, nothing's the same
Left me, in yesterday
You don't see me that way, touched me that way, no more
When you get so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold
You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
And the ground is shakin' from all of our mistakes
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind
If only you knew, Why my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
We see what's up ahead, Why do we stay? Watchin' us fadin'
Trapped in, by regret
There's no way out, and there's no way in
And it's so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold
You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
And the ground is shakin', from all of our mistakes
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind
If only you knew, Why my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
The bond is breaking, and it's taking over, my spirit
Something's shifted, have we drifted too far, apart now?
Left me, in yesterday
You don't see me that way, touched me that way, no more
When you get so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold
You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
And the ground is shakin' from all of our mistakes
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind
If only you knew, Why my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
We see what's up ahead, Why do we stay? Watchin' us fadin'
Trapped in, by regret
There's no way out, and there's no way in
And it's so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold
You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
And the ground is shakin', from all of our mistakes
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind
If only you knew, Why my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
The bond is breaking, and it's taking over, my spirit
Something's shifted, have we drifted too far, apart now?
Monday, October 5, 2009
i hate being sick.
So it's a new weekk and it has started with a sucky monday. I had to skip class coz im sick and I have a quiz 2morrow. goshh i hopee like i can do it. I dont even know what the quiz is aboutt but oh well. wish me luck for tomorrow's quiz I guess. haha. but anywayyy I feel like Im getting worse and not better =( thank god i took some medicine already last night. hopefully we'll see some progress. A lot of people have been so caring and concerned just too bad the only person I wanted to be so caring and concerned wasn't and isn't =(( double the sadness right there. Now Im stuck at home watching tv, laying down and trying to keep myself warm. I really cant afford to be sick like this. I have way too much going on this week. argghhh. i hate being sick and i hate seattle weather right now. if only I had a carrr. hahahaha :P daddyyy i needd and want a carr pleaseeeeeeee! hahaha XD
Saturday, September 19, 2009
patience
so what a week it has been. this is the first time i felt really ignored. wowww. what a sucky feeling it is. i try to think positive and keep myself busy so i wont think about it so much. but it's kinda hardd u knoww. but im glad i have some friends that are always by my sidee. i guess i should thank the people who have been keeping me company this whole week. don't need to mention them. they know who they are :) anywayy this blog is titled patience becausee i feel like my patience is being tested like real badd. i wonder what happens you know when being patient sometimes doesn't even change anything? goshh it's so easy to give advice to other people to be patient but how come it's so hard to take ur own advice? =( i don't really know the point of this blog. haha. I guess i'm just feeling down and wanted to express my feelings. so here i am. and that's it.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
lessons learned in lifee..
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person who wasn't supposed to let us down probably will. You'll have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when someone broke yours. You'll fight with your best friend and maybe even fall in love with them. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone close to you. So take many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every 60seconds you spend angry or upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance take it, if it changes your life, let it.
Always remember that you are To blessed to be stressedd - http://www.freecodesource.com/myspace-layouts/preview.php?id=L870987169 :))
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance take it, if it changes your life, let it.
Always remember that you are To blessed to be stressedd - http://www.freecodesource.com/myspace-layouts/preview.php?id=L870987169 :))
I promise
A poem I found which i love love lovee.
I can't promise you the world,
but I can try to give you a happy life.
I can't promise you I'll never yell,
but I can try to be patient most of the time.
I can't promise you I'll never make mistakes,
but I can try my best to correct my faults.
I can't promise you that I'll catch you every time you fall,
But I can try to always be close by so I can help you back up.
I can't promise that our love will last forever like in storybooks,
But I can promise that no matter what,
I'll never forget the memories I made with you.
but I can try to give you a happy life.
I can't promise you I'll never yell,
but I can try to be patient most of the time.
I can't promise you I'll never make mistakes,
but I can try my best to correct my faults.
I can't promise you that I'll catch you every time you fall,
But I can try to always be close by so I can help you back up.
I can't promise that our love will last forever like in storybooks,
But I can promise that no matter what,
I'll never forget the memories I made with you.
QuOtes
So i was browsing around and found some quotes that i really like or maybe even explain how i feel. haha. whicheverr.. but here they aree ;P
there's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. but it's not giving up.. it's realizing that you don't need certain people, the bullsh*t and the drama they bring!
WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME, I know I'm not perfect and I DON'T claim to be. But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your own hands are clean.
you never know how STRONG you are until being STRONG is the only choice u have.
Life is funny sometimes, but if you look close enough you find hope: in the words of children, in the bars of a song, and in the eyes of someone you love...
there's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. but it's not giving up.. it's realizing that you don't need certain people, the bullsh*t and the drama they bring!
WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME, I know I'm not perfect and I DON'T claim to be. But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your own hands are clean.
you never know how STRONG you are until being STRONG is the only choice u have.
Life is funny sometimes, but if you look close enough you find hope: in the words of children, in the bars of a song, and in the eyes of someone you love...
Monday, August 31, 2009
petualangan mencari makan =D
So today was an adventure! haha. It all started from me waking up around 4pm. it was coz of the jetlag! haha. So I decided to take a shower and by the time I got out tashki just got here. We were both hungry so we decided that we were gonna go out to eat with sye and one of tashki's friend named saskia. So we didn't leave till about 6pm. I wanted to go to tstation but sye said on monday it's closed so that was a NO. Then we said let's go eat korean but then we wanted something different. So saskia suggested this place called bbq chicken in udistrict! We got there and it was closeddd! So another no. Then she suggested another place in downtown. We got there and it said that no minors are allowed. Me and sye are minors but saskia said that it will be fine they never check ur I.D. And how lucky were we once we sat down and was about to order the waitress asked for our I.D's! So we had to leave! ANd u have no idea how hungry we were by then. So after that we were otw to search for another korean resto in mountlake terrace area. Finally after a 2 hour drive from lynnwood to udis to downtown and back to mountlake terrace our stomach's were full with yummy korean food! ;) what a day! haha.
JETLAGGED
So after a 2 month vacation to Indonesia. I'm back in Seattle, cold and rainy Seattle. blehhhh! haha. It's 5am here and yes I am jetlaggedd! That is why I'm writing this blog after 2months of not writing. haha. I guess I'm not much of a blogger :P Well anywayy I'm missing Indo and all the people! :'( It was so much harder to leave this time than last year! I had so much fun! Did a lot of shopping, eating, chilling and etc :) I guess I didn't want to have to come back to reality! haha. I'm gonna start college soon and I have to find a job and a bunch of other stuff to do! SO I'm hoping that this time there wont be so much going on! And pleaseee no more dramaaa! that would be super NICE ! haha ;P and just wanna say.. i'm officially missing u JAKARTA! =(
Monday, June 1, 2009
Welcome to my life - simple plan
Well right now my profile song is totally what I'm feeling right now.
Latelyy.. I've been feeling suckyy and yuckky! I've gone through a lot this week and let's just say its not all that pretty. I felt that everything that I did was wrong and it like totally affected other people. So for the people that got hurt by anything that I did or said. I'm sorrryyy =(
But what I think is that in the end it all comes down that we're all human and we're not perfect. We make mistakes and we learn from it. Everything in life is a learning process. Sometimes you might want to give up but I know that we are actually strong enough to face all this. Coz God will never give us anything we can't handle :)
Latelyy.. I've been feeling suckyy and yuckky! I've gone through a lot this week and let's just say its not all that pretty. I felt that everything that I did was wrong and it like totally affected other people. So for the people that got hurt by anything that I did or said. I'm sorrryyy =(
But what I think is that in the end it all comes down that we're all human and we're not perfect. We make mistakes and we learn from it. Everything in life is a learning process. Sometimes you might want to give up but I know that we are actually strong enough to face all this. Coz God will never give us anything we can't handle :)
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
A visit from fresno! :)
SHARON BENITA is heree! wootwoottt! Obviously I have been slacking off a lot. hahaha. On sunday we stayed up till 6am! We went to kawanua, karaoke and talked till 6am! And we were going hiking at MT. Si at 10am! So yeahh lack of sleep that's for suree! haha. But it's been fun! :)
Thursday, May 21, 2009
DISNEYLAND
I've been like watching the travel channel for the past hour and it's been about Disney world! U have no idea how much I wanna go there right noww! A mini vacation would be so niceee! Some place like Disneyland or Hawaii! hahahahaha. OH mann I'm like dreaminggg about itt. hahahaha.
confused.
Lifeee..
Life is so hard at times. It confuses me. Really it does! Right now I feel really lost and don't know what to do. At some point I feel like I just want to go home where I don't have to worry about things so much. Being here on your own, sometimes it sucks! I mean I love learning to be independent but when you push yourself to hard you're gonna lose it at some point. And let's just say I'm really really close to that.
After all the things I've been through I've realized that I'm not as strong as I thought I was. Geezzzz. Maybe I shouldn't be putting myself down like that. But it's true. Ci iflin said that women are like tea bags. you don't know how strong a woman is until you put her into hot water. And hot water meaning facing problems and all that enchaladaa that goes with it! I feel like I've been dipped into hot water and pulled back then dipped into it again. So me being strong is not constant. Sometimes I can be real strong but sometimes I'm just pure WEAK!
It kind of sucks too how all the problems I'm facing have to do with moneyy! Have u realized that most problems in the world are coz of money? Well I have! I'm stressing with hearing about how tuition is all going up and with the economy crisis going on who know's if rent is gonna be more expensive and prices of food going up?! I feel bad for my dad. I actually have thought of quitting school just because I don't want my dad to stress about sending me money all the time. Which he has been forgetting to do. Or being late at sending me money. It's been tough on all of us I guess. I'm sorryy dadddyy! :( If only money grew on trees! haha.
Anywayy besides all thatt.. todayy it was tusuk sate day at church! we're preparing for our summer fair in june. Which is like a month from now. and I think they are all crazy for preparing the sate from now! haha. gudluck to them tho! hopefully the meat will still be good. hahaha. We made like about 1500 sate's today! Mann my hands were tired after thatt. But it was kind of funn. hehe. So right now I'm in a dilemma. To sleep or not to sleepp? hahaha. I want to sleep but I'm not sleepyy. This has become a very very bad habit. Sleeping late everyday. Hopefully this will go away sometime soon. hahaha. But I guess that's it for todayy! PEACE OUT!
Life is so hard at times. It confuses me. Really it does! Right now I feel really lost and don't know what to do. At some point I feel like I just want to go home where I don't have to worry about things so much. Being here on your own, sometimes it sucks! I mean I love learning to be independent but when you push yourself to hard you're gonna lose it at some point. And let's just say I'm really really close to that.
After all the things I've been through I've realized that I'm not as strong as I thought I was. Geezzzz. Maybe I shouldn't be putting myself down like that. But it's true. Ci iflin said that women are like tea bags. you don't know how strong a woman is until you put her into hot water. And hot water meaning facing problems and all that enchaladaa that goes with it! I feel like I've been dipped into hot water and pulled back then dipped into it again. So me being strong is not constant. Sometimes I can be real strong but sometimes I'm just pure WEAK!
It kind of sucks too how all the problems I'm facing have to do with moneyy! Have u realized that most problems in the world are coz of money? Well I have! I'm stressing with hearing about how tuition is all going up and with the economy crisis going on who know's if rent is gonna be more expensive and prices of food going up?! I feel bad for my dad. I actually have thought of quitting school just because I don't want my dad to stress about sending me money all the time. Which he has been forgetting to do. Or being late at sending me money. It's been tough on all of us I guess. I'm sorryy dadddyy! :( If only money grew on trees! haha.
Anywayy besides all thatt.. todayy it was tusuk sate day at church! we're preparing for our summer fair in june. Which is like a month from now. and I think they are all crazy for preparing the sate from now! haha. gudluck to them tho! hopefully the meat will still be good. hahaha. We made like about 1500 sate's today! Mann my hands were tired after thatt. But it was kind of funn. hehe. So right now I'm in a dilemma. To sleep or not to sleepp? hahaha. I want to sleep but I'm not sleepyy. This has become a very very bad habit. Sleeping late everyday. Hopefully this will go away sometime soon. hahaha. But I guess that's it for todayy! PEACE OUT!
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