retreat'09 - live your life !

So I just got back from retreat with pastor amos and all I can say is that it was awesome! :) GOD is so good to all of us. The 1st night we got there we had a power outage because of all the wind that knocked some trees down so all the electricity was off and you can imagine how that was but that didn't stop us from praising and worshiping the Lord :) Pastor Amos said that God is showing us how it is when there is no electricity but we should still be able to do things as long as we walk in the light. We didn't have our 1st session but pastor Amos did share about his experiences. Around 11 we went to our cabins to sleep and finally the electricity went on around 2am.

The next morning we all got a wake up call at 6am and yes my room are all heavy sleepers so none of us wanted to wake up. haha. but we finally got out of bed went to prayer then breakfast and then our session began. We learned about how God speaks to us through our dreams, visions, prophecy, thoughts or our feelings. We also learned how about we can miss our destiny if we do not wait for God's timing. I guess it's always about the right timing, the right time to get a boyfriend/girlfriend, the right time for getting a job, etc. God always has his own timing for everything. Afterall he already has everything planned for us anyway :) So then it was free time till 6pm, we had group activities, rock climbing, high ropes, basketball, tennis or you could sleep if you wanted too. haha. But I did the high ropes course and let's just say I was freaking out like crazy but I had good friends to back me up and kept pushing me to go forward. After all those activities it was dinner time and then another session. We had an awesome praise and worship in the beginning then came along the session which was about the 2 principles: the principle of making a stand and the principle of divine dependance. It taught us how we have to stand up for Jesus and make the best out of it because a lot of other people need to be saved and if just one person stands up for Jesus a lot of people's lives can change. An example is like this video. Copy and Paste the link and hopefully you can watch it :)

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=622595000&ref=profile#/video/video.php?v=87705636216&ref=mf

So the night passed by and it was time for a bonfiree! wohoooo! :D it was our last night there but it was a fun night. We played the telephone game, charades and we ate smores. Eventhough it was super cold but we didn't care. We just had a lot of fun with all our friends. It started getting late and we had a long day and we had to wake up early again the next morning so we all went back to our cabins and got ready for bed.

Morning came, another wake up call but none of us woke up. We slept till like 7 and we were all late for the morning prayer. ooppsss ;P but we got ready as soon as we could and left to the sanctuary. We had breakfastt then our last session came :( We learned about walking in the spirit. How if we walk in the spirit then nothing can stop you. We have an awesome God and all we have to do is believe in Him. Nothing is impossible for God ;) After that last session I got prophecied by pastor Amos. He said that i had a lot of dissapointment in my life and rejection and how I felt guilty all the time. Tears started coming down my face as he said that. He said that I need to forget about the past. He also said that I am going to be an intercessor. woww didn't see that one coming. haha. He also said that people who have had the same experience as i had such as rejection and all that, will come to me for advice and I will be there to help them :)

Overall, retreat was AWESOME! I learned a lot, made new friends and had fun at the same time! I wish we could have been there longer but I guess it had to end some time + we all have school the next day. haha. but because of retreat now I have a new view of life, I'm gonna be more faithful and more on fire for God! :)

avalanche - marie digby

So I found a song which pretty much explains how I feel right now :(

Avalanche

Since when do you come around?

And the temperature's changed, nothing's the same
Left me, in yesterday
You don't see me that way, touched me that way, no more
When you get so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
And the ground is shakin' from all of our mistakes
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If only you knew, Why my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
Can we pull through this avalanche?

We see what's up ahead, Why do we stay? Watchin' us fadin'
Trapped in, by regret
There's no way out, and there's no way in
And it's so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
And the ground is shakin', from all of our mistakes
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If only you knew, Why my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
Can we pull through this avalanche?

The bond is breaking, and it's taking over, my spirit
Something's shifted, have we drifted too far, apart now?

i hate being sick.

So it's a new weekk and it has started with a sucky monday. I had to skip class coz im sick and I have a quiz 2morrow. goshh i hopee like i can do it. I dont even know what the quiz is aboutt but oh well. wish me luck for tomorrow's quiz I guess. haha. but anywayyy I feel like Im getting worse and not better =( thank god i took some medicine already last night. hopefully we'll see some progress. A lot of people have been so caring and concerned just too bad the only person I wanted to be so caring and concerned wasn't and isn't =(( double the sadness right there. Now Im stuck at home watching tv, laying down and trying to keep myself warm. I really cant afford to be sick like this. I have way too much going on this week. argghhh. i hate being sick and i hate seattle weather right now. if only I had a carrr. hahahaha :P daddyyy i needd and want a carr pleaseeeeeeee! hahaha XD

patience

so what a week it has been. this is the first time i felt really ignored. wowww. what a sucky feeling it is. i try to think positive and keep myself busy so i wont think about it so much. but it's kinda hardd u knoww. but im glad i have some friends that are always by my sidee. i guess i should thank the people who have been keeping me company this whole week. don't need to mention them. they know who they are :) anywayy this blog is titled patience becausee i feel like my patience is being tested like real badd. i wonder what happens you know when being patient sometimes doesn't even change anything? goshh it's so easy to give advice to other people to be patient but how come it's so hard to take ur own advice? =( i don't really know the point of this blog. haha. I guess i'm just feeling down and wanted to express my feelings. so here i am. and that's it.

lessons learned in lifee..

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person who wasn't supposed to let us down probably will. You'll have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when someone broke yours. You'll fight with your best friend and maybe even fall in love with them. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone close to you. So take many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every 60seconds you spend angry or upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance take it, if it changes your life, let it.

Always remember that you are To blessed to be stressedd - http://www.freecodesource.com/myspace-layouts/preview.php?id=L870987169 :))

I promise

A poem I found which i love love lovee.

I can't promise you the world,
but I can try to give you a happy life.
I can't promise you I'll never yell,
but I can try to be patient most of the time.
I can't promise you I'll never make mistakes,
but I can try my best to correct my faults.
I can't promise you that I'll catch you every time you fall,
But I can try to always be close by so I can help you back up.
I can't promise that our love will last forever like in storybooks,
But I can promise that no matter what,
I'll never forget the memories I made with you.

QuOtes

So i was browsing around and found some quotes that i really like or maybe even explain how i feel. haha. whicheverr.. but here they aree ;P


there's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. but it's not giving up.. it's realizing that you don't need certain people, the bullsh*t and the drama they bring!

WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME, I know I'm not perfect and I DON'T claim to be. But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your own hands are clean.

you never know how STRONG you are until being STRONG is the only choice u have.

Life is funny sometimes, but if you look close enough you find hope: in the words of children, in the bars of a song, and in the eyes of someone you love...