He won't let go :)

disappointment.

Why do we feel disappointed?

I have always wondered why I have had the patience to put up with negative feelings. But I can say that I'm glad God gave me a strong heart and mind to push through all the pain that I've felt throughout my life. Right now disappointment is the best word to describe how I feel. Why? Well because the people that I'm closest to or thought was closest to haven't been the best people to help me during the hard times. I never imagined that the closest people to me are actually the furthest from me right now. Yet life still goes on, whether you're going through good or bad. I really wish my life could be maybe say predictable. Just because I don't know what God has in store for me. Right now I am just living my life day by day, not knowing what's going to happen next. I can honestly say that I'm scared. BUT, I know that God is always on my side. I came across a song titled I won't let go by Rascal Flatts. Even though maybe the "I" in "I won't let go" doesn't necessarily mean God, I thought of it that way. And after I heard it, it made me feel safe. I hope somehow it will make you feel that way too :)

I Won't let go by Rascall Flatts

It's like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that

You think your lost
But your not lost
on your own
Your not alone

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
If you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go

It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it's dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we're too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight

And I wont let you fall
Don't be afraid to fall
I'm right here to catch you
I wont let you down
It wont get you down
Your gonna make it
Yea I know you can make it

Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go
Oh I'm gonna hold you
And I wont let go
Wont let you go
No I wont.

inspiration.

It's been a super long time since I blogged. Feels weird trying to get back to it. But I'm taking the time out of my busy life to write this :P

So, I just got back from retreat and got prophesied by Pastor Amos. The weirdest thing is that he said I can act and also something about me taking journalism. He said I am a good writer and that people will buy books that I have written. When I heard that I was like whoaaaaa, slow down here. It kind of didn't make any sense to me at first but after I thought about it, it got me thinking about how I do like writing and how I like inspiring other people through it. Even though I'm pretty sure no one actually reads my blogs. Hopefully, just hopefully when someone does, they will be inspired through it :)