retreat'09 - live your life !

So I just got back from retreat with pastor amos and all I can say is that it was awesome! :) GOD is so good to all of us. The 1st night we got there we had a power outage because of all the wind that knocked some trees down so all the electricity was off and you can imagine how that was but that didn't stop us from praising and worshiping the Lord :) Pastor Amos said that God is showing us how it is when there is no electricity but we should still be able to do things as long as we walk in the light. We didn't have our 1st session but pastor Amos did share about his experiences. Around 11 we went to our cabins to sleep and finally the electricity went on around 2am.

The next morning we all got a wake up call at 6am and yes my room are all heavy sleepers so none of us wanted to wake up. haha. but we finally got out of bed went to prayer then breakfast and then our session began. We learned about how God speaks to us through our dreams, visions, prophecy, thoughts or our feelings. We also learned how about we can miss our destiny if we do not wait for God's timing. I guess it's always about the right timing, the right time to get a boyfriend/girlfriend, the right time for getting a job, etc. God always has his own timing for everything. Afterall he already has everything planned for us anyway :) So then it was free time till 6pm, we had group activities, rock climbing, high ropes, basketball, tennis or you could sleep if you wanted too. haha. But I did the high ropes course and let's just say I was freaking out like crazy but I had good friends to back me up and kept pushing me to go forward. After all those activities it was dinner time and then another session. We had an awesome praise and worship in the beginning then came along the session which was about the 2 principles: the principle of making a stand and the principle of divine dependance. It taught us how we have to stand up for Jesus and make the best out of it because a lot of other people need to be saved and if just one person stands up for Jesus a lot of people's lives can change. An example is like this video. Copy and Paste the link and hopefully you can watch it :)

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=622595000&ref=profile#/video/video.php?v=87705636216&ref=mf

So the night passed by and it was time for a bonfiree! wohoooo! :D it was our last night there but it was a fun night. We played the telephone game, charades and we ate smores. Eventhough it was super cold but we didn't care. We just had a lot of fun with all our friends. It started getting late and we had a long day and we had to wake up early again the next morning so we all went back to our cabins and got ready for bed.

Morning came, another wake up call but none of us woke up. We slept till like 7 and we were all late for the morning prayer. ooppsss ;P but we got ready as soon as we could and left to the sanctuary. We had breakfastt then our last session came :( We learned about walking in the spirit. How if we walk in the spirit then nothing can stop you. We have an awesome God and all we have to do is believe in Him. Nothing is impossible for God ;) After that last session I got prophecied by pastor Amos. He said that i had a lot of dissapointment in my life and rejection and how I felt guilty all the time. Tears started coming down my face as he said that. He said that I need to forget about the past. He also said that I am going to be an intercessor. woww didn't see that one coming. haha. He also said that people who have had the same experience as i had such as rejection and all that, will come to me for advice and I will be there to help them :)

Overall, retreat was AWESOME! I learned a lot, made new friends and had fun at the same time! I wish we could have been there longer but I guess it had to end some time + we all have school the next day. haha. but because of retreat now I have a new view of life, I'm gonna be more faithful and more on fire for God! :)

avalanche - marie digby

So I found a song which pretty much explains how I feel right now :(

Avalanche

Since when do you come around?

And the temperature's changed, nothing's the same
Left me, in yesterday
You don't see me that way, touched me that way, no more
When you get so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
And the ground is shakin' from all of our mistakes
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If only you knew, Why my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
Can we pull through this avalanche?

We see what's up ahead, Why do we stay? Watchin' us fadin'
Trapped in, by regret
There's no way out, and there's no way in
And it's so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
And the ground is shakin', from all of our mistakes
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If only you knew, Why my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?
Can we pull through this avalanche?

The bond is breaking, and it's taking over, my spirit
Something's shifted, have we drifted too far, apart now?

i hate being sick.

So it's a new weekk and it has started with a sucky monday. I had to skip class coz im sick and I have a quiz 2morrow. goshh i hopee like i can do it. I dont even know what the quiz is aboutt but oh well. wish me luck for tomorrow's quiz I guess. haha. but anywayyy I feel like Im getting worse and not better =( thank god i took some medicine already last night. hopefully we'll see some progress. A lot of people have been so caring and concerned just too bad the only person I wanted to be so caring and concerned wasn't and isn't =(( double the sadness right there. Now Im stuck at home watching tv, laying down and trying to keep myself warm. I really cant afford to be sick like this. I have way too much going on this week. argghhh. i hate being sick and i hate seattle weather right now. if only I had a carrr. hahahaha :P daddyyy i needd and want a carr pleaseeeeeeee! hahaha XD

patience

so what a week it has been. this is the first time i felt really ignored. wowww. what a sucky feeling it is. i try to think positive and keep myself busy so i wont think about it so much. but it's kinda hardd u knoww. but im glad i have some friends that are always by my sidee. i guess i should thank the people who have been keeping me company this whole week. don't need to mention them. they know who they are :) anywayy this blog is titled patience becausee i feel like my patience is being tested like real badd. i wonder what happens you know when being patient sometimes doesn't even change anything? goshh it's so easy to give advice to other people to be patient but how come it's so hard to take ur own advice? =( i don't really know the point of this blog. haha. I guess i'm just feeling down and wanted to express my feelings. so here i am. and that's it.

lessons learned in lifee..

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person who wasn't supposed to let us down probably will. You'll have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when someone broke yours. You'll fight with your best friend and maybe even fall in love with them. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone close to you. So take many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every 60seconds you spend angry or upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance take it, if it changes your life, let it.

Always remember that you are To blessed to be stressedd - http://www.freecodesource.com/myspace-layouts/preview.php?id=L870987169 :))

I promise

A poem I found which i love love lovee.

I can't promise you the world,
but I can try to give you a happy life.
I can't promise you I'll never yell,
but I can try to be patient most of the time.
I can't promise you I'll never make mistakes,
but I can try my best to correct my faults.
I can't promise you that I'll catch you every time you fall,
But I can try to always be close by so I can help you back up.
I can't promise that our love will last forever like in storybooks,
But I can promise that no matter what,
I'll never forget the memories I made with you.

QuOtes

So i was browsing around and found some quotes that i really like or maybe even explain how i feel. haha. whicheverr.. but here they aree ;P


there's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. but it's not giving up.. it's realizing that you don't need certain people, the bullsh*t and the drama they bring!

WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME, I know I'm not perfect and I DON'T claim to be. But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your own hands are clean.

you never know how STRONG you are until being STRONG is the only choice u have.

Life is funny sometimes, but if you look close enough you find hope: in the words of children, in the bars of a song, and in the eyes of someone you love...

petualangan mencari makan =D

So today was an adventure! haha. It all started from me waking up around 4pm. it was coz of the jetlag! haha. So I decided to take a shower and by the time I got out tashki just got here. We were both hungry so we decided that we were gonna go out to eat with sye and one of tashki's friend named saskia. So we didn't leave till about 6pm. I wanted to go to tstation but sye said on monday it's closed so that was a NO. Then we said let's go eat korean but then we wanted something different. So saskia suggested this place called bbq chicken in udistrict! We got there and it was closeddd! So another no. Then she suggested another place in downtown. We got there and it said that no minors are allowed. Me and sye are minors but saskia said that it will be fine they never check ur I.D. And how lucky were we once we sat down and was about to order the waitress asked for our I.D's! So we had to leave! ANd u have no idea how hungry we were by then. So after that we were otw to search for another korean resto in mountlake terrace area. Finally after a 2 hour drive from lynnwood to udis to downtown and back to mountlake terrace our stomach's were full with yummy korean food! ;) what a day! haha.

JETLAGGED

So after a 2 month vacation to Indonesia. I'm back in Seattle, cold and rainy Seattle. blehhhh! haha. It's 5am here and yes I am jetlaggedd! That is why I'm writing this blog after 2months of not writing. haha. I guess I'm not much of a blogger :P Well anywayy I'm missing Indo and all the people! :'( It was so much harder to leave this time than last year! I had so much fun! Did a lot of shopping, eating, chilling and etc :) I guess I didn't want to have to come back to reality! haha. I'm gonna start college soon and I have to find a job and a bunch of other stuff to do! SO I'm hoping that this time there wont be so much going on! And pleaseee no more dramaaa! that would be super NICE ! haha ;P and just wanna say.. i'm officially missing u JAKARTA! =(

Welcome to my life - simple plan

Well right now my profile song is totally what I'm feeling right now.

Latelyy.. I've been feeling suckyy and yuckky! I've gone through a lot this week and let's just say its not all that pretty. I felt that everything that I did was wrong and it like totally affected other people. So for the people that got hurt by anything that I did or said. I'm sorrryyy =(

But what I think is that in the end it all comes down that we're all human and we're not perfect. We make mistakes and we learn from it. Everything in life is a learning process. Sometimes you might want to give up but I know that we are actually strong enough to face all this. Coz God will never give us anything we can't handle :)

A visit from fresno! :)

SHARON BENITA is heree! wootwoottt! Obviously I have been slacking off a lot. hahaha. On sunday we stayed up till 6am! We went to kawanua, karaoke and talked till 6am! And we were going hiking at MT. Si at 10am! So yeahh lack of sleep that's for suree! haha. But it's been fun! :)

DISNEYLAND

I've been like watching the travel channel for the past hour and it's been about Disney world! U have no idea how much I wanna go there right noww! A mini vacation would be so niceee! Some place like Disneyland or Hawaii! hahahahaha. OH mann I'm like dreaminggg about itt. hahahaha.

confused.

Lifeee..

Life is so hard at times. It confuses me. Really it does! Right now I feel really lost and don't know what to do. At some point I feel like I just want to go home where I don't have to worry about things so much. Being here on your own, sometimes it sucks! I mean I love learning to be independent but when you push yourself to hard you're gonna lose it at some point. And let's just say I'm really really close to that.

After all the things I've been through I've realized that I'm not as strong as I thought I was. Geezzzz. Maybe I shouldn't be putting myself down like that. But it's true. Ci iflin said that women are like tea bags. you don't know how strong a woman is until you put her into hot water. And hot water meaning facing problems and all that enchaladaa that goes with it! I feel like I've been dipped into hot water and pulled back then dipped into it again. So me being strong is not constant. Sometimes I can be real strong but sometimes I'm just pure WEAK!

It kind of sucks too how all the problems I'm facing have to do with moneyy! Have u realized that most problems in the world are coz of money? Well I have! I'm stressing with hearing about how tuition is all going up and with the economy crisis going on who know's if rent is gonna be more expensive and prices of food going up?! I feel bad for my dad. I actually have thought of quitting school just because I don't want my dad to stress about sending me money all the time. Which he has been forgetting to do. Or being late at sending me money. It's been tough on all of us I guess. I'm sorryy dadddyy! :( If only money grew on trees! haha.

Anywayy besides all thatt.. todayy it was tusuk sate day at church! we're preparing for our summer fair in june. Which is like a month from now. and I think they are all crazy for preparing the sate from now! haha. gudluck to them tho! hopefully the meat will still be good. hahaha. We made like about 1500 sate's today! Mann my hands were tired after thatt. But it was kind of funn. hehe. So right now I'm in a dilemma. To sleep or not to sleepp? hahaha. I want to sleep but I'm not sleepyy. This has become a very very bad habit. Sleeping late everyday. Hopefully this will go away sometime soon. hahaha. But I guess that's it for todayy! PEACE OUT!

buddies day out!

Today the plan was to wake up at 9am and go to the gym with shady! Well guess whatt?? That didn't happennn! AS ALWAYS we never wake up! hahaha. Especially how the weather in seattle is. It's like its PMS-ing. HAHA! Sometimes its hot then its cold. And today it was rainy and cold! Not a good combination. :P So no gym today! I feel guilty. So gotta make it up tomorrow! ;P

Anywayyy the next plan was to hang out in northgate since they just opened a new imax theatre with 14! Yes 14 theatres! And since it is their grand opening all the movies, popcorn and drinks were only $2!! Yeahyaaaa! hahahaha. Me, shay and T watched twilight! And let's just sayyy that edward cullen is oh so FINEEE. hahahaha. Wish I had a boy like that in my lifee! HAHA XD Anyway me and shay think that it is going to be our new hang out place. hahaha. we'll see about that! :P

Before watching the movie, shay had a meeting all the way in downtown Seattle. So I chilled at panera bread with T for like 2 or 3 hours! haha. Our plan was to do homework! and well we did a little bit of homework and more of browsing youtube and talking and doing random stuff! Like taking picturessss! hahahahaha. It was a fun 2-3 hours!

After the movie, me and T were starving so we decided to eat in ChinaTown! It's always hard to decide on where to eat. haha. But we decided with purple dot. Got some yummy food in our tummy's! and we were making a fool out of ourselves there. At least me and T were. Trying to drink from two cups at the same time without a straw! T saying that his has sperms in his TEA! HAHAHAHAHA. that was hilarious! and shay was saying that we were an "embarrassment to society" hahahahaha. me and T are proud of it tho! we got our own shoutout on shay's facebook!
Which saidd....
Shady is hanging out with her 2 bestfriends who are classified as an 'embarrassment to society!'
HAHAHAHA. yeayyy to me and T! ;P

Anywayyy since shay was embarrassed she decided that we should all leave. hahaha. So we got in the car and was on our way to Siska's apartment to get shay's stuff. In the car we pumped up the song "Buy you a drank" And uwww weeeee.. we were dancing and singin like crazy! hahahaha. Then it was time to head homee..

All i can say is that it was a FUN day! :) Buddies for life yooo! hahahaha :P

just a regular monday

So.. 2nd day of my blogging, it's a monday! goshh I HATE mondays. hahahaha.

But anywayyy my day didn't really start till about 12 in the afternoon. yes i know.. i woke up pretty late. gotta get my sleeping hours straight here. haha. but it's coz i couldn't really sleep good last night. kept waking up and stuff. i hate it when i can't sleep. i think craig david's insomnia song would go good with this story. hahaha. Ok enough of my sleeping problems!

So i started off the day by checking fb as always and thenn did a lil bit of homework! Gosh! i've been slacking on this paper like no tomorrow. I really gotta get it done! It's just like I'm kinda clueless in writing papers. I'm no good at it. I need HELPPPP! ;P haha. Anyway after trying to write my paper, I stopped by mcdonalds coz i was starving by then. It has become a habit to kind of wait to eat till I'm like super duper hungry! Me and my roommate have been doing that well becausee we don't have any food at home! it's so sadd. hahaha. We really need to go grocery shopping. Like seriously. All we have to eat is like instant noodles. so not good! haha. So after that I got into watchingg tv and like chattinggg on msn. Then it was time to go to the gym! Yayyyyy.. trying to get skinnyyy or eat least get in shapeee! hahaha. It really is hard. I'm praying I can lose weight before I go back to Indo. *crossing fingers* :P So much tempting and fattening food these days! hahaha.

So the end of the day is heree and I'm super tired. Hopefully I can get to bed early tonight so I can wake up to go to the gym tomorrow at 9am!

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So I made this account like a long time agoooo. buttttt I haven't even posted 1 blog yet. haha. Geez what's wrong with me. ><>